Bitterly Disapointed

Our trip to Minnesota is coming up in a couple of weeks...and I am so sad about it. I had been looking forward to it so much as a way to spend some uniterrupted time with Jeff (especially before #3 arrives) and as a family. Only...Jeff isn't going. We decided that Jeff should probably save his vacation days for when the baby is born, and for if any of the kids get sick in the fall. (I can't afford to miss any days before the baby is born...literally as it costs me $125 a day to pay the sub). I am so disapointed about the whole thing, but I am trying to put a brave face on it for Evan who is beside himself with excitement. I am also sad, because I think Jeff is happy about it. He is a hermit at heart, and I think he is glad to get us out of the house for a week and be on his own. Which depresses me in several ways-the obvious being that I wish he wanted to be with us more, and also because yet again, he gets alone time, and I am stuck by myself with the kids on vacation. Lovely! I try not to begrudge him the alone time he gets every day, but it is hard. I am even jealous he gets to drive in the car by himself! I don't forsee this happening for me for about the next 18 years or so. I know with finances being what they are, we probably won't be going on another vacation for awhile, so I am so bummed to be taking this last trip without him. It is funny, but sometimes since we've gotten married, I feel more like a single person than when I was single! I guess it's just more obvious to you and feels worse when you have another half, and they are always missing. I guess the other thing is that our 1st wedding anniversary falls in the last part of the trip. We were going to go out and do something special to celebrate while we were up there, and now I won't really see him at all that day. Ugh. I hate thinking about it.

My Mother Rocks

So...Charlie has been pretty grumpy the last week, which is very unlike him, and he hasn't been sleeping very well (also unlike him), and he hasn't been wanting to eat very well. I have been going along for several days assuming that he was teething. He got his first two teeth about a month and a half ago, so this seemed logical, and he was having some of the symptoms. I finally called my Mom to whine to her yesterday afternoon after Charlie had been awake ALL DAY LONG for the third day in a row, refusing to take a nap. I live for my afternoon nap, and not having one for three days was killing me. She said right away, "I think he has an ear infection. You should take him to the doctor right away." So I did late yesterday, and guess what? DOUBLE EAR INFECTIONS!!! How does she know these things? I don't know what I would do without her. Charlie is now on a mega antibiotic, so I am hoping it kicks in fast, before I turn into a zombie from lack of sleep.

Pools

The boys and I went to K-Mart the other day, which is now apparently another name for ghost town. I have never liked this store as it gives me the creeps, and I probably haven't been to one in about 2 years, but they were having a sale on backyard pools so I sucked it up and went in. I have been saving some birthday money from last year for forever in search of something that I could get to share with the family, and specifically the boys. I found one of those easy set pools on sale for about 50% off in their Sunday add, so I had to go. Normally, we go swimming at my parent's house, since it is a chance for me to get out of the house, to have some help with the kids, and to relax in a way I can't at home being the only adult around. But, I thought we would get this for emergencies when we can't get over there, and truthfully I don't know what kind of helacious chaos my life will be next summer (can you tell how excited I am to be the mother of 2 under 2?) So the dimensions on the pool didn't seem overly big at the store. Those of you that know me well are thinking, mmm hmmm, we know about your lack of geometry, math, etc. skills. It turns out that a diameter of 10 feet is a lot bigger than I thought.

Sad News

My family and I received sad news this week...my Grandma Rose (my Mom's mother) was just diagnosed with breast cancer. They have found a tumor in each breast. Grandma Rose is one of my favorite people in the whole world. Both of my grandmothers have been extremely inspirational to me throughout my life. I have been feeling a lot closer to Grandma lately as well, as she has gone through "irish twins" and it has helped me so much to talk to her about things. I think it is even scarier for us because we have already had to watch my mom go through the treatments for this disease, and I think it is worse knowing what is coming. I remember how hard it was for my mom, who was only 51 at the time, and I can't imagine an 85 year old having to endure that.

It has also shaken Sarah and I up a bit, because my mom's doctor told her that this now establishes for us a "family genetic trend/history" for breast cancer. Growing up, I never in a million years thought I would have to think about this. Our chances of getting breast cancer as women who's mother and grandmother have had the disease have now risen to 65%. That blows me away.

So, whatever your religious inclination might be, I would appreciate any thoughts and/or prayers!

My Two Favorite Toddlers

I got to spend time this last weekend with two of my favorite children (other than my own...) Alyssa and my nephew Colin! I was soooo excited on Saturday because I got to babysit Alyssa for a couple of hours while Adam and Christi went out to lunch. I got to see what it is like having another girl around. Alyssa is the most adorable little thing...she didn't make a peep when Christi left, and she was so much fun to play with. She took my hand and would lead me somewhere new when she needed a change of scenery and she called me Dee. I am so glad to be a part of this little ones life. I also got to hang out with my nephew Colin on Sunday night. He just cracks me up. He is talking a mile a minute and has just started putting sentences together. Charlie was in the exersaucer, and I kept putting a couple toys on the ledge for him to play with. Everytime, Colin would come up, take them away and say clear as day "Mine Char Char (what he calls Charlie) Not you!" A little bit of rivalry already! Lucky for Colin, Charlie just laughed at him, since he loves to just look at him. I just love it when they start talking and you find out what they are thinking. I am so excited to see Charlie at this age. It will be so much fun...

Yes, I know...

I should have prefaced my survey of my last entry with "Yes, I KNOW it is supposed to be two words, but..." 1) I am a girl and cannot possibly give just 2 word answers to anything and 2) it's my blog so I should be able to be as wordy as I want, right? I know I just annoyed half the population, so I apologize!

I have just discovered the thing that will make my summer heaven...on Soapnet everyday at 4:00 they show the most WONDERFUL TV show ever made...BEVERLY HILLS 90210!!!!! I have been in withdrawl ever since they took it off FX. I am in paradise!!